Melancholy Eve

Currently at my seasonal gig until 9pm, and this overwhelming feeling of pending sadness has turned my already tired mood into something so foul that I can hardly stand it.

I applied for an internship for a teaching program in South Korea a few weeks ago.

Tomorrow is the final day of processing submitted documents for the applicants for that program, and I feel as though my credentials just weren’t enough to make it to the interview stage. And now I honestly don’t know what there is left for me to do. Sigh.

Even worse, I keep imaging what would have happened next and came to realize something that I wasn’t aware of – no matter where I go, my conditioning to not fully letting others in, to keeping folks at arm’s length at all times, to really allowing myself to soak in those beautiful moments called life to someone else – will always be there.

So even if I did (do) get to the interview stage of this program, on a plane to SK, go through training, and am afforded the opportunity to teach in a place that I have come to love many years ago, will I be able to fully appreciate it all? Will these feelings and mentality of mine only become more heighten? This is how I feel everyday in the city I was born and raised as it is, around friends that I have know for years. How would I weather all of that and then some then? Especially with the cultural and language barriers?

Having shared all this, I still want the chance to find out. And I still feel that I would (will) do well with this internship. So I am going to press on and remain positively hopeful that I will get a response from the Consulate in GA about an interview.

I don’t think luck will help me too much, so instead I will ask for more patience and plenty of clarity. As well as peace, no matter the outcome.

Be inspired. Stay inspiring.

– Soprano Musings

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Wanderlust and Beyond!

Heya Musings!

It has been a little over a month since I have arrived back to the States. While I’m here, I have trying to collect as much coin as possible to travel again. Yes, the wanderlust is real!

I miss traveling. So much so that I am looking into becoming a full time wanderluster.

And I can hear all of you now, “Well, aren’t you already working on becoming an author?” or “I thought that you were working on teaching now?” All of which are true. Though now, I see no reason why I can not add one more title to the list.

Personally speaking, I am not too hung up on titles to begin with anyway 🙂

Now that I have spent almost a year traveling, teaching, and building my name in the indie author world, I know that I can do this!

And that is why I am posting this entry. I want this to serve as a timestamp for me to ‘stamp out’ the last remaining negative thoughts that I have about taking on this new adventure. This is where I say, ‘So long sucker!’ to those last pesky dream crushing thoughts and ‘Hello beautiful!’ to every dream I have of me in a place I had only ever read about or saw online.

The real question now is: How do I go about letting the rest of the world know about my new permanent ‘wanderlust’ status?

Yes, this post is a step in the right direction, but what else can I do? How should a rebrand my social medias for Soprano Musings? Goodness knows that my YouTube and Facebook would welcome the change – lol

My most important question is: How do I incorporate my love of music (even as a Music Major dropout), my new found passion for teaching (and learning as a student of life along the way), with my wanderlust pursuits? Surprisingly, the name that I chose when I started my journey still fits – Soprano Musings is definitely here to stay 🙂

Though what about the rest? Now this is where I call upon all of you!

If you have any suggestions on how to make my presence known as a newbie travel blog (on a budge), where can I go to buy the equipment needed to share my travels on social media, what blogs should I visit for a few tips, or if you have a few places in mind that I should visit – let me know in the comments. I would love to hear from you, and I promise to check in soon with an update!

As always, be inspired and stay inspiring!

-Soprano Musings

TEFL in Thailand

Whoa! I did it again 🙂

I know that it’s been over a month since my last entry, but I have (somewhat) a good reason. These TEFL classes overseas are grueling!

The sights are at least nice, but that is not the main reason for my visit to Koh Samui, Thailand 🙂

I have mentioned several posts ago that I would love the opportunity to teach overseas and now I am learning how to teach – while overseas.

The class is normally a month long, but for this month we only have 3 weeks. And the first week….intense is an understatement!

I do like how active and hands on the course is though. It’s just so much information at once! It’s taking me some time to really process all that I am learning. And on top of being in a different country – that part hadn’t dawned on me until a few days ago!

I would love to stay in Thailand a bit longer. At least until the end of the year, but since I do not have a BA, my options of truly teaching overseas are limited. So now I’m thinking of giving Spain or Cambodia a try, or head back to the states and teach privately.

I also had a thought of volunteering once a week somewhere back home too. To gain some teaching experience and a demo portfolio for those interested in me privately tutoring them.

Also, I have been interviewing via Skype for online jobs too. I have one more interview this Monday (or technically Tuesday because of the time zone – lol).

First, I have to pass this TEFL course! It’s either a pass or fail system, with a chance to have a merit attached to your pass status.

So wish me luck everyone and I’ll see you soon!

(currently working on a few one shots to share with you all in the next few days)