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Interpreting my Dreams

Last night I had one of those weird dreams again.

I say again, because I normally do not have dreams when I sleep. I just fall into a deep slumber and then my alarm wakes me up. Though when I do have dreams – they are always weird.

As I said earlier, last night was one of those weird dream nights. In the dream I was back at both of my old colleges. Well, it was a smattering of being at both the university and then the local college. More specifically, I was in the choir rooms. And a new college choir was being formed.

Faith Evans was the teacher. I remember recording her singing (which she did plenty of in this dream – lol) with my cell phone. And each time she sung, there were blinding bright theater lights and a small choir with her. I suppose it was in her contract(lol)? I was asked to join without auditioning after she saw me singing along to one of her songs. She floated over to me and pointed her microphone at me while motioning her other hand in a ‘come here’ fashion.

Now, in the dream, there was NO ONE else in the choir room when she started singing. Though when she had the microphone in my direction, the room became PACKED with people! Sigh. I slowly begin singing away and the scene changed to me and another woman being behind me, holding my shoulders and swaying me in time to the Faith Evans’ choir.

More students came in and I asked to be placed in the Alto section. Then some rail thin girl said, “Ugh. The Alto section? Why. Stop!” She said this in Spanish, by the way, and the fact that I understood her gave me the creeps! LOL

So the scene changed again (sigh!) to me being in the piano class room. It was more of an Alice in Wonderland piano room, because the piano was way higher than me when I sat down. I was in the middle of adjusting it when some Hispanic guy slithered in. He literally crawled under my piano bench and hissed out, “You know that you can’t do this again. Just sit this one out and hide in the back again.”

I looked him square in the eyes as I removed my hands from the piano and let it drop on his head.

A small voice then said, “That was not necessary.” I couldn’t see who said it and I didn’t care as I walked out of the room. But before I could reached the door, my phone starting ringing and woke me up.

I have some thoughts on what this dream could mean from my subconscious, but I am not ready to really go there and break down those feelings.

Though I am willing to open the floor to any of you that interpret dreams, can read tarot cards, or studying psychology in the comments below.

Thank you for reading, and as always – be inspired and stay inspiring!

– Soprano Musings

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So What If I Fall?!

Time sure does fly when you have to be an adult.

Last night I went out to my local skating rink with some friends for Adult Skate night and was painfully reminded of that fact. When I was in the fifth grade, my class went on a field trip to a roller rink and I flove it! I remember skating for the first time, just giggling by myself and feeling so free surrounded the bright lights as the DJ blared music through the speakers.

That is not how this outing started.

It had been years since I’ve taken on the skating floor, and I spent the first 20 minutes there worrying about breaking a bone from kissing the floor. Also, I forgot to stretch my legs before strapping on my boat size skates and my shins were on fire after a few laps around the rink! LOL

My friends were totally great about it – even the other adults that whizzed by me as I clumsily made rounds around the rink. With their bright smiles and “Yeah! You can do it!” pep chants, I had a great time. But what really got me out of my head and over my feelings was the sounds of Kim Wilde 🙂

When I heard her cover of ‘You Keep Me Hanging On’, I started singing along and somehow ended up on the skating on the floor. My shin pain and wobbly feet took a back seat and I was so happy – just like I was when in the fifth grade and skating for the first time.

This time when the shin pain came back and I had to sit again I was upset because I had wanted to keep skating! And by the time ‘Motivation’ by Kelly Rowland started to play, my shins were good and I headed back to out to the floor 🙂

And while skating, I had a moment.

“Why am I so afraid of falling? I’m planning a solo trip overseas to teach and travel, and I’m tripping right now over falling on the floor in front of my friends? Why?”

I started thinking about what exactly would happen if I did fall. Maybe someone would laugh, but I knew that someone would also come to my side and ask if I were okay. I would tell them that I am okay and proceed to lift myself back up, take another break, and start skating again.

“Going to Thailand solo is way scarier than this!” I told myself as I begin to pick up the pace. Going to Thailand alone is scary sometimes, but not scary enough for me to not want to do it at all. Just like any adventure in life – the hardest (and nerve racking) part is always when you first start. With that in mind, I kept skating.

After a few more songs, I met an angel.

A beautiful, long raven hair, hip swaying, roller rink angel 🙂

She took my hands and explained to me how to best find my balance. As Marvin Gaye’s ‘Sexual Healing’ played in the background, this sweet woman reminded me to find the rhythm (and to bend my knees-lol) to guide me around the rink.

And I was reminded again about my trip. Yeah, I will be solo for the most part, but that doesn’t mean that I can’t ask for help along the way. I do have friends that care about me and will help me if they can. Remembering that at the exact same time as Mary J. Blige’s song ‘I’m Fine’ started playing had me grinning from ear to ear.

It was in that moment, whether on the roller rink here, or on a plane to chase my dreams – I would be fine. I have good friends, and am capable of taking care of myself. As long as I remain positive and get back up if I do fall.

I’m going to be just fine.

For more of my story about my plans to teach and travel aboard, please click on the link below:

https://www.gofundme.com/732hkk

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2017 Smashwords Summer/Winter Sale!

Heya Musings!

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