Currently at my seasonal gig until 9pm, and this overwhelming feeling of pending sadness has turned my already tired mood into something so foul that I can hardly stand it.
I applied for an internship for a teaching program in South Korea a few weeks ago.
Tomorrow is the final day of processing submitted documents for the applicants for that program, and I feel as though my credentials just weren’t enough to make it to the interview stage. And now I honestly don’t know what there is left for me to do. Sigh.
Even worse, I keep imaging what would have happened next and came to realize something that I wasn’t aware of – no matter where I go, my conditioning to not fully letting others in, to keeping folks at arm’s length at all times, to really allowing myself to soak in those beautiful moments called life to someone else – will always be there.
So even if I did (do) get to the interview stage of this program, on a plane to SK, go through training, and am afforded the opportunity to teach in a place that I have come to love many years ago, will I be able to fully appreciate it all? Will these feelings and mentality of mine only become more heighten? This is how I feel everyday in the city I was born and raised as it is, around friends that I have know for years. How would I weather all of that and then some then? Especially with the cultural and language barriers?
Having shared all this, I still want the chance to find out. And I still feel that I would (will) do well with this internship. So I am going to press on and remain positively hopeful that I will get a response from the Consulate in GA about an interview.
I don’t think luck will help me too much, so instead I will ask for more patience and plenty of clarity. As well as peace, no matter the outcome.
Last week I became a TEFL teacher and I have to thank Samui TEFL!
It was a tough 3 week course, though honestly I would not change one second of this experience. Most folks would say that I was crazy for spending my birthday in Thailand – teaching P4 students for my teacher practicums while sweating profusely and receiving a painfully honest critique afterwards.
Though if I had not seen this TEFL program through, I would not have received the knowledge needed to teach English as a a foreign/second language. I would not have learned more specifically what areas that I am lacking in as a teacher.
Not only do I have more tools at my disposal to be a more sound teacher, I now know what subjects I need improving in to become the best TEFL teacher that I can be to my future students!
Spending time on the beautiful and welcoming island of Koh Samui, Thailand was the icing on the cake 🙂
Again, thank you Samui TEFL for this amazing opportunity!
I promise to try my best to do you all proud. And to check in every few months or so to share my journey as a TEFL teacher in Mexico 🙂
I know that it’s been over a month since my last entry, but I have (somewhat) a good reason. These TEFL classes overseas are grueling!
The sights are at least nice, but that is not the main reason for my visit to Koh Samui, Thailand 🙂
I have mentioned several posts ago that I would love the opportunity to teach overseas and now I am learning how to teach – while overseas.
The class is normally a month long, but for this month we only have 3 weeks. And the first week….intense is an understatement!
I do like how active and hands on the course is though. It’s just so much information at once! It’s taking me some time to really process all that I am learning. And on top of being in a different country – that part hadn’t dawned on me until a few days ago!
I would love to stay in Thailand a bit longer. At least until the end of the year, but since I do not have a BA, my options of truly teaching overseas are limited. So now I’m thinking of giving Spain or Cambodia a try, or head back to the states and teach privately.
I also had a thought of volunteering once a week somewhere back home too. To gain some teaching experience and a demo portfolio for those interested in me privately tutoring them.
Also, I have been interviewing via Skype for online jobs too. I have one more interview this Monday (or technically Tuesday because of the time zone – lol).
First, I have to pass this TEFL course! It’s either a pass or fail system, with a chance to have a merit attached to your pass status.
So wish me luck everyone and I’ll see you soon!
(currently working on a few one shots to share with you all in the next few days)