Posted in Feelings, Soprano Musings, Writer, Writing

Christmases Without You

12/23/2016
6:42 PM

Another Christmas without you.
And I’m still wondering what to do.
Or how I manage to make it through.

I find myself missing you at the oddest times.

Not when when I’m angry at people who shop because their social medias told them to do so.

Never when I am lashing out at someone who thought that I’d lay down and let them come over me first with their fucking nonsense.

It’s always when everything around me is going just right. When the sun is shining so damn bright that I find myself happy with life.

The feeling of bliss is then followed with despair, because I feel guilty for living so well.

Without you here.

I try to console myself with thoughts of you watching over me, saving me from my inner struggles, and steering the stellar serendipities straight my way.

That only lasts temporarily.

Until I remember that I still have to spend yet another Christmas without you.

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Author:

Music has always been a part of me. No matter how many times I would try to pursue a career in something else I would find myself coming right back to it. So now I am done with running scared. I was all in on this journey. And I'm so glad that I saw it through, because it lead me to something that I love. Something that I didn't think was possible - the ability to become a self published author. For years I have written poems, my thoughts, short stories, and songs. Really it was just therapy to me, but now I want to see where else it can take me too. So I'm learning the social media ropes thanks to all these social media outlets. Also working up my nerve to face the networking scene for the artists and musicians in my hometown too. All with the hopes of connect with others who love music as much as I do. And to make some coin by music and write freelancing. Let's see what happens, shall we?

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