Posted in Feelings, Soprano Musings, Writer, Writing

Christmases Without You

12/23/2016
6:42 PM

Another Christmas without you.
And I’m still wondering what to do.
Or how I manage to make it through.

I find myself missing you at the oddest times.

Not when when I’m angry at people who shop because their social medias told them to do so.

Never when I am lashing out at someone who thought that I’d lay down and let them come over me first with their fucking nonsense.

It’s always when everything around me is going just right. When the sun is shining so damn bright that I find myself happy with life.

The feeling of bliss is then followed with despair, because I feel guilty for living so well.

Without you here.

I try to console myself with thoughts of you watching over me, saving me from my inner struggles, and steering the stellar serendipities straight my way.

That only lasts temporarily.

Until I remember that I still have to spend yet another Christmas without you.

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Author:

K. McCoy wants to live in a world where indie vinyl record shops can be found in every city and sweets don’t come with so many calories. As an Independent Writer, she has just finished her first NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month) Novel, which is now being edited for its 2018 release. When she is not baking or playing Cards against Humanity with her friends, you can find her writing down new ideas and concepts somewhere sunny or discovering new music on online. You can find out how to connect and create with her by visiting her on Facebook and Instagram under K. McCoy. And if you are intrigued by the musings of a music major dropout, be sure to stop by K. McCoy's alter ego page, Soprano Musings!

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